Reblogged from free-your-mind
Life as I see it
Start everyday with a new hope, leave bad memories behind, and have faith for a better tomorrow
He texted me yesterday. I cant say I wasn’t surprised because I never thought we would talk again. I don’t want to think too much into it but it made me smile. I assume he got the letter I wrote to him. Maybe things have changed or maybe not but I can say that I think I will be okay. I got my closure and I said what needed to be said. I believe deep down I still have hope but if it’s going to happen its because of him. I did all I could already.
Well met my ex and talked for a long time. He didn’t want to get back together but somewhere deep down inside I felt like he wanted to be with me but he’s fighting it or being strong. Not to mention the random make out sessions we had but he still stayed strong on his decision. Maybe this is for the best but I’m glad we were able to talk and see each other. Maybe we aren’t ready for a friendship yet but I hope someday we could be. These days weren’t a perfect situation but it happened and I can’t say I didn’t try my hardest. All I can do is move forward from here.
It’s is hard.
Yesterday I had a discussion with my friend about her and her ex. I decided that I wouldn’t want to be in that same situation because I don’t want to be stuck with someone who is confused about me and doesn’t want to be with me. I want a man who knows what he wants and will fight for it. I wouldn’t want to get back with my ex because he felt pity for me. I’m more capable of finding someone better than him. Aside from that on thursday I will ask him why he broke up with me. I was able to look him in the eye and tell him when I broke up with him a long time ago. Its his turn now and if he doesn’t he is a coward. Praying and wishing for the best.
Today was a busy day but still managed to think about my meet up with my ex. I just can’t imagine what is going to happen but I don’t keep my hopes up. Almost broke down today when I heard my friend talking about her relationship with her ex. I would give anything to be in the same situation as her even though it’s wrong. I can never tell someone not to go back to their ex because I know deep down inside I would take him back if he came. 3 more days and a lot of thinking.
